sometimes

Sometimes I feel that I’m not good enough. Or that I’m not pretty or successful or worthy of anyone’s time. The people I meet and get to know fill up time and space in my life, but lately I have felt that anytime I put an effort into something, it backfires in my face and I’m left with nothing but a memory and feeling of inadequacy for the opposite sex – or even the same sex (not lesbian-y of course – not that there’s anything wrong with that). But still. I try. And that doesn’t work. I don’t try. And that doesn’t work either. All it does is start off as a “me” evening and slowly turns into a night of fun and good times, yet once another opportunity presents itself the “not trying” turns into “hmm … maybe if I did give this someone a chance” and ultimately turns into something sour. Read More


the best summer

Two years ago I was in great shape. In a matter of two months I lost 30 pounds and didn’t even know how I did it, and wasn’t expecting to. I had self-confidence and pride. I didn’t know what I wanted to do but I had some sort of plan as to how I was


The Tom & Jerry Show

Just when you thought things couldn’t get anymore bizarre, this yahoo news story informs us of the up and coming new pop culture review show hosted by MTV’s Tom Green and Jerry Springer, which is being pitched to cable companies right now.


the happy ending

Once upon a time there was this girl who was extremely closed off to the world due to unforeseen circumstances that plagued her fifteenth year. She thought herself ugly and unworthy of anyone’s time. She felt as though everyone left her to deal with things alone and cemented that thought once her best friend died


Down to Earth

What an exciting mission. Welcome back to the crew of Discovery. It’s great they’re back safely. I’ve been following the mission closely for the last 2 weeks by watching NASA TV and the awesome gallery of videos, images and news from the mission on NASA.gov.


Do you…

do you ever feel like you’re living in a movie, or a book, or a television show and somehow something you’re wanting, craving or dreading is going to happen or appear and there’s going to be nothing you can do to stop it because someone else has already written the script?


ugh

You know what’s really sad? I kind of really like this new Paris Hilton song. And that makes me mad at myself. Because it’s not even her singing, and I have it on repeat.


I Hate and Love That Damn Commerical

Now if your like me, 99 out of a 100 commercials you see on TV, you think are dumb and serve absolutely no purpose whatsoever. Then every once in a while, a commercial comes around that grabs you. Whether it is funny, creative or just damn sappy. Well, I have been caught in one of


One True Moment

It was one of those times when even though it was bad, it was good. Just like everything else with her, this fell perfectly into place. We met at a swanky hotel bar in midtown. I had never been there before as swanky hotel bars had never been my scene. But she worked near there


Coming Back to Blogging

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted (you may have noticed, if you’re even checking anymore). When I started this I promised myself that it was to be a pleasure, not a duty. The moment it became a duty, I’d give myself permission to abandon it for awhile & come back when I was ready. I